As the flutters of pollen obliterate my van, outside furniture, and lungs, as I exhale sneezes, I am reminded of God, the creator of the universe and His need for change…for seasons. The embarking upon spring invokes a variety of emotions, inspiring goals, and fresh perspectives that were unattended during winter. As I reflect upon this past “winter” of my life, I am soulfully and spiritually “deep” these days with all of the pondering of our existence, why it is the way it is, and our place in it.
I crave more…more of God, more purpose, more simplicity. Not more, in the sense of looking for something else to satisfy, but more, in the sense of embracing what I have been given. The simpletons of seeing my sister’s newborn baby and being awestruck that his fingerprint is unlike any other. Or the way the flowers know when they are supposed to bloom this time every year. Observing the rhythm of every wave rolling onto shore innately knowing their boundary. These are the reflections of a God, who wove the world into being just for me! A sin-tainted world, which never was God’s original plan, but still His creation. God’s desire was to walk with me in the cool of the day, in the sinless Garden. His desire was to uninhibitedly speak to me face to face and lavish His love over me everyday. His desires for me have always been good, they still are!
As the free reign of choice was offered to our humanity, we couldn’t handle the beauty of all that we were given. We wanted “more”! More knowledge, more explanations, more than the simplicity of knowing God alone and enjoying his hand-carved creation and purpose for us! We craved to be like Him! The unexplained no’s and mysteries that we didn’t understand were driving us to find the answers. And we are still driven by that desire today…to “know” and understand in the way that our creator, God does. We, the created, just as a child, must accept the “unexplainable”! As parents you would think that we would get this, but somehow, we still try to eat our dessert for dinner and get infuriated when we are told “no”! We expect our children to just accept and trust our “no”, without questioning, but we do the exact same thing to God. We have to have answers, instead of trusting His love and good intentions for us despite the things that we can’t explain or comprehend. If we can’t figure it out, then we will make up some theology or “explanation” to make ourselves in control again…then, we are right back to the Garden days.
So, as I embrace this season of “spring” in my life, this season of good change…this season of “letting go” of the past and latching hold of a new adventure. Rejecting my desire to be “God” and trusting Him as the One who has the purist of love and intentions for me. I don’t have to understand everything or control it! I was created to be loved and to walk with God. I can only go so far on this sin-tainted earth, but God has already prepared a plan where he would redeem me and I will walk with Him face to face again, just as my Joseph is. (Romans 8:17-21) His redeemed plan is even better than the Garden. That plan is not only for me, but also for you!
There is a summons crying out for you…for you to let go of trying to be God and understand everything that hurts in your life. We are supposed to share in the sufferings of Christ so that we may also share in His glory. (Romans 8:17) “Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as some strange thing happened to you, but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, then when His glory is revealed, you may be glad with exceeding joy.” I Peter 4:12-13. The Bible is clear to me that we will suffer on this earth and that is still after the death and resurrection of Jesus. We are not promised a pain-free existence, but are encouraged not to think it is strange. Just maybe these sufferings prepare us to relish that glory even deeper and that we will be able to enjoy it all the more.
We are the created, not the creator. Embrace that God is not the cause of your pain. We are living in this fallen world and it is not our home. We are passing through and are apart of God’s plan, a “bigger plan” that we can’t see or understand…YET! We will understand! We will have some answers! Until then, I beckon you to trust. Trust this God that I know is crazy about you…about us…the God who has carried me through the coldest of winters and has thrust me into the newness of spring-time. “Winter has gone, but spring has come.” We are the created, by the most loving, faithful, gracious creator. We can trust him with the “unexplainable” and watch him use it in our lives here on this temporary earth.
Written on March 12, 2012